Jolene Silcox Dennis
May 25, 1949 to
March 10, 1993
EIGHTEEN YEARS! It is hard to believe that it has been that long, but it has. I was almost 18 when my Mom passed away. After being in the hospital for a month she let go of the battle with AIDS. We only knew about it for such a short time but we knew that it was the best as we did not want to watch her to continue to suffer . We had already received about 12 years without knowing that the disease was there so we got to enjoy the time we had with each other without wondering “Is this the last time.”
To thinks that she has been gone as long as she was here for my life is a humbling thought. Sometimes it seems like yesterday that we were saying our goodbye’s in the ICU unit at Cottonwood Hospital and other days it seem like a life time. All the special moments she missed because she was taken from us too soon. She has always been in our hearts and as we celebrate those specials times like a wedding or a babies being born there is always the thought “I wish she was here”.
When Austin was about 3 he says to me one day “Mom I have freckles and they are kisses from heaven” I responded, “Yes, they are kisses from heaven from your grandma”. It was such a special moment that here was a little 3 year old being innocent to say something like that. I believe that each one of my kids was handed picked by my mom to be sent to us and that they know what a special lady she was.
I LOVE you Mom and not a day goes by that I am not reminded about you in some way or another, whether it is the way that someone compares me to you or just a memory of our time together good and bad. I miss you every day! I know you have been watching over us and guiding us throughout lives but at times I still wish you were here with us. I LOVE YOU!
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